I ended up having a lot of mixed emotions last night, its a pretty serious surgery and going in at 420lbs makes me really nervous... especially when you have kids who are relying on you to be okay. I talked to the kids about me going to the doctors and how I'll be gone a couple days, and my boy Ayden knows how to get to me. He was like "When I'm sick you go with me to the doctor, so I go with you to the doctor too" talk about tear jerker.
I talked to my little cousin last night who offered me encouragement in how great my future is gonna be, talked to aunts, and friends, sooo many people who really care for me. I'm so grateful to have such positive and caring people in my life.
So I cried a lot a lot a lot last night, and I prayed even more than I cried. I know I have to put all my faith in God that he has more planned for me and that this is just a stepping stone in my path and he will get me over it.... but its still scary!
Soo here I am a couple hours out from my new life, I have taken my "before shots" and got my skin prepped, took the contacts out, got some super comfy clothes and now just waiting on my mom to come and pick me up and take me to the hospital.
From what I understand its pretty painful the first couple days so I might not be able to update till after I get home for surgery... sooo well see!
Thanks to all my friends and family for encouragement and love and especially all the prayers.
If my Dad is strong enough to go thru so many surgeries I must have some of his tough genes in me some where!
Love you all,
Ashley
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